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Remembering Our Past Events and Nirvana Azzopardi's Message

Children Festival in Aid of Eden, 6 Body Mind Spirit first in Malta, Metageum Temples Conference

Remembering Our Past Festivals & Late Nirvana Azzopardi

by Nataša Pantović

Remembering Gzira Children Festival in aid of Eden Foundation

If you have ever organised a Festival, you know how hard the management of all the logistics are, working hard, day after day, contacting authorities, sponsors, adverisers, offering stalls, scheduling hour by hour activities, building the stage, sound equipment, chairs, security, auditioning kids for performances, preparing jury, prices, etc. I can still feel the buzz related to it all.

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Children Festival 25th and 26th Sept Poster of Events

Again, if you have ever organised a Festival, you know that a Festival earns only when it is fully established, all the beginings are done for charity. So for the love of , for the love of , for the love of , for the love of , we have decided to included Eden Foundation as the main benefitory of all the entrance fees. My memories recall 1,000s of people, kids and parents loving every bit of the program, screams, laughter, entertainment, but also some last minute mis-haps. At one point, a security guard did not show up, so I had to personally stay a night without a policeman, protecting all the drinks and equipment, spending that night in a car, as a 30-years old woman, patrolling the Gzira open Gardens. Locals who know Gzira at night, at that time, would know what that means. In the middle of the night I was faced with a drunken drug addict who tried to carry away a crate of beer, and had to convince him to let it go.

Nirvana Azzopardi TV personality Malta

The PR and Stage Hosting of the Children Festival was done by Nirvana Azzopardi. 

Nirvana Ciavola Azzopardi has died in 2013 after a two-year battle with breast cancer. The 40-year-old mother of two aged 10, and five, was a TV personality when she joined our team. In her 30s, full of life and enthusiasm, I was more than happy to entrust her with the management of the event's PR and with hosting the Stage programs.

We were invited on different Radio and TV shows, working many hours a day marketing the Festival at my home that servered as an office. Getting to know her, was a privilage and an extraordinary experience!

03 AoL events Children Festival 2 days of workshops stage stalls 25th Sep and 26th Sep at Gzira Gardens in aid of Eden

AoL events Children Festival 2 days of workshops stage stalls 25th Sep and 26th Sep at Gzira Gardens in aid of Eden

Sharing with you all this and Nirvana's Last Message:

Having cancer doesn't come with many perks. However, there are a few. One is the chance to tell people you care about that you love them and are grateful for their presence in your life. Another is the huge learning curve you go through. Being faced with your own mortality gives you perspective, lots of it. It aligns life and sets about creating order in the 'what matters and what doesn't ' department. Yet another perk is that people really listen to you because every word you utter could be your last one, I guess! So I have taken these three advantages and used them to write this letter to all the people who care enough about me to be here today. A letter to thank you and give you some advice. And because these ARE actually my last words, I really hope that you will listen!
 

The first piece of advice I give you is not to wait till you are sick to tell the people you love that you love them.

 
Even better than telling them, show them. Spend time with them. Write them little notes, buy them little thoughtful presents, surprise them, shower them with hugs and kisses and try and be there for them, no matter what it is they need.
 

Forgive.

 
If there are people who have wronged you, and there always are, even if they have not shown remorse, forgive them anyway. Someone once told me that holding on to anger is like holding on to a hot piece of coal, waiting to throw it at someone. In the meantime it is you who is getting burnt. Let go. Forgive.
Put work in perspective. Yes we all need to work to earn a living, but not all of us need to work so hard. Work to live; don't live to work. It's not worth it. And it's when you get sick that you realize how insignificant that 'important' report was. How further from 'life or death' that deal actually was.
 

Stop smoking.

 
There is NOTHING good that we get from smoking. Only disease, bad breath, yellow fingers and a suppressed immune system. Quit. Today. When you leave this church. No excuses.
 

Love yourself. Love your self sick. Feed your body good stuff. Take exercise. Find time to do the things you enjoy.

Every day. Try to dedicate 20 minutes a day to yourself. Doing what you enjoy. Make yourself a cup of tea, put your feet up and read a magazine. Have a relaxing bath. Do some gardening. Go for a walk. Spend time with your pets. 20 minutes a day. It's not a lot, really.
 

Do not stress.

 
Yes you can do it. Stress is how we choose to react to the problems in our lives. I went through a period of extended stress before I got sick. I am sure, beyond any doubt, that this stress was a major contributor towards my illness. It's just not worth it. No matter who does what to you or your family, don't let it stress you. It will just make matters worse.
 

Trust your instinct. You know better.

 
If you ever sense that something is wrong, make your doctors rule out your fears with tests, not opinions. Had I done that I would probably not be writing this letter and you would not be here bidding me farewell.
Connect with God. Now. Not when you need a miracle. Have faith. Believe in Him. Believe that even though you might not understand it, the universe is unfolding the way it should. He's got it under control.
 

Count your blessings. Daily.

 
I found so much more to be grateful for after I got struck with a terminal illness, it's quite sad really. I always tell my children, life is not about what you have, but how much you appreciate it.
 

For you parents out there. There is nothing you will do in this life that is more important than bringing up your kids.

 
They are the future; your legacy. Put that phone down. That message can be sent after they go to sleep. Close your laptop. Playing with your child is more important than seeing what rubbish everyone is posting on Facebook today. Enjoy them to the full, give them time, take in their beauty, learn from them, make beautiful memories with them. That is what will matter in the end. Tell them they are wonderful and special and show them that they are loved and valued.
 

So those are some pearls of wisdom from someone who learnt a lot about life while facing her death.

 

And now I would like to say some thank yous.

 
I can assure you these prayers were not wasted. They gave me much strength in my darkest moments. For all of you who helped in practical ways, financially and emotionally. To strangers for random acts of kindness.
To all my friends, you know who you are, for the constant flow of home made food, outings for my children and foot rubs! You made the unbearable bearable and I will be eternally grateful. To my children's godmothers Fran and Essa. When I chose you, I didn't know it would come to this but I know now that I could not have made a wiser choice. Thank you girls. I pass on the baton with a happy heart and a peaceful mind.
To my wonderful parents who went through what no parent should go through with courage, strength and dignity. Words will never be enough to express my gratitude but I hope you know that there is nothing you could have done better. Thank you.
 
My soul mate Marius for enduring endless days and nights of torment, threats of being turned into a dwarf and other similar abuse. You know it was not me speaking because in my eyes you are quite simply perfect and I love you more than Charlie! (The dog)
 
And finally my two heroes. The reasons I fought so hard and the reason I would not let go. My dearest Sam and Noah. The bravest, strongest, sweetest boys ever. I know it was very very difficult to see mummy go through what she did but you two were amazing and I am so very proud of you.
 

I will be in your hearts every second of every day. I am with you constantly.

But there are also many other people who love you and most of all there is Jesus, your protector. He was working through me to protect you, now he will work through daddy and nannu and nanna and Essa and Fran and all of mummies' friends who love you so much.
 

I want you all to leave this church today with a renewed sense of life. Let not a day, an hour, a minute go by without being present to it and grateful for it.

Children Fest in Gzira's Gardens in collaboration with Local Council Gzira in aid of Eden Foundation 

The two days event consisted of creative exploration with clowns, jugglers, magicians, dancers, face painting, balloons, crafts, masks, pottery, painting, soccer shooting competition, games and a Talent Show for kids age 3 to 10 for dancing, singing, playing instruments, performing, with jury and prices for each category. The entrance fee was in aid of Eden Foundation.

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AoL events Children Festival 2 days of Workshops Stage Performances Stalls

The Children Festival was extremly successful leading to many more Charity events... 

01 Local Council Gzira thank you note for Gzira Children Festival at Gardens in aid of Eden

Thank You Note from the Local Council

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Sumerian Temple Hymns

The First Ever Published Book by High Priestess 2400 BC

High Priestess Enheduanna and the Kesh Temple Liturgy

Following Humanity's fight for  by Nataša Pantović

Holy water and the sacred word, that is all you need. Said a gypsy witch with a snake around her neck.

rod-of-asclepius snake around a rod

Maria's tears they are, from the grave of Jesus. Not an item easy to find. Not a request easy to settle. A magic key of ever lasting happiness... Mystical Christianity Alpha and Omega

I'll get you the bottle of tears but for the words, you got to speak with a wizard, a male, not from the Egyptian gypsies, a Bedouin from the desert, the worshipper of Nuit, an Arab, perhaps a sailor with own boat, a
Sufi Dancing
 Sufi follower, or to a wondering barefoot priest from Syria, a hermit from the Sinai mountain, Sha Ra where MoShe saw the burning bush. That is a bit more difficult for they talk not to women. The Wisdom of Gods is kept amongst them! It used to be with the Pythagoras followers passed with the Numbers, but has been since kept a secret for the past 2,000 years!

A butterfly flew passed breaking the silence building nets of somewhere in the space. It whispered...

The philosophical research concerning the poses the question: Is there a meaning / sense / purpose to voicing / writing / reading as us finite beings talk about and Infinity?

Is a human being really able to discuss The Tao of Logos?

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New Consciousness and Group Dynamics

Learning about Subconsciousness from Ancient Mythology & Philosophers Prometheus Titans Patanjali

New & Subconsciousness of Group Dynamics

Learning from Prometheus and Titans, Ancient Greek

by Nataša Pantović

The subconscious material or chitta has its own “body” that engulfs the . Each soul from its birth passes through various awakenings, or dissociation from the sub-consciousness.

Mind chitta is an astral vibratory response within the subconscious layers with the precise words, feelings, and thoughts formations. We all enter it unconsciously. An ancient Indian Philosopher Patanjali  recognizes these dynamics within his Yoga Sutras. The Ancient Greeks Mythology and Philosophy Mother of All Sciences resonate with exactelly the same logic.

Creation of humanity by Prometheus as Athena looks on (Roman-era relief 3rd century AD) Italy

Creation of humanity by Prometheus as Athena looks on (Roman-era relief 3rd century AD) Italy

Quantum physics and Consciousness

The infinite divisibility of the atom with its rapid transformation prevents the Soul from manifesting. Two atoms react uniquely different when with each other and two Souls have uniquely different encounters. Two mothers exchange parenting knowledge, two grandpas share their illnesses; two lovers interact through a sexual contact. The circumstances dance within the Universal Flow, creating a type of Dough that subconsciously modifies our thinking principle as a Soul materialized on Earth or someone who belongs to a Group. We naturally belong to various Groups: age, nationality, profession, Religion and 90% of our subconscious mind “belongs” to these dynamics making us learn from each other, yet the conscious mass manipulation or the “molding” of any group’s dynamics is a fairly recent phenomenon within Human History.

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Leonardo da Vinci's Leda with Swan Mystical Knowledge

Mesopotamia Gods and their Ancient Wisdom

Ancient Worlds Teachings from Leonardo da Vinci's - Leda with Swan

by Nataša Pantović

During 1505-1510, in Florence, Leonardo da Vinci paints his Leda with the Swan, with the motif of a natural landscape untouched by a human hand, depicting Leda and her lover, the Swan, Zeus disguised, the father of the s.

I was surprised to see the same Leda in Leonardo’s Madonna of the Rocks as a mystical metaphor for Mary.

Playing with our subconscious and using his art to awaken deep emotions, painting with contrasting colors, this genius indirectly tells us where our attraction comes from, and what is our  connecting with, why is Light so important for us...

Leda with Swans Leonardo da Vinci 1510

Leda with Swans Leonardo da Vinci 1510

Leda as Venus and our Concept of Beauty

Leda has exaggerated curves, as antique statues of Venus had, linking with our subconscious concept of love, a perfect youthful face, with a long pointed nose and no eyebrows, no wrinkles, totally symmetrical, surrounded with gold and sparkles, the body that shines with light, pointing at her children, hatching from eggs.

The original of the painting is lost, probably deliberately destroyed, and was last recorded in the French royal Court in 1625. However the picture is known from many copies, of which the earliest is probably the Spiridon Leda, now in the Uffizi Gallery in Florence.

Madonna of the Rocks by Leonardo

The same Leda was depicted in Leonardo’s symbolism as metaphors for Mary.

A perfect face far too young to be a mother, removed from all the shades of childbirth or motherhood suffering, with the hair-style that you find only in a carefully straightened, with lots of trouble contained curly hair, surely never used in a “staple” condition of Jesus’ birth, with a chubby, happy, content, over-sized baby, awakening “oh, how sweeet” emotional reaction within us, with no “suffering” faces of all ages to remind us that Life is a Struggle.

Madonna and child Jesus with the infant John the Baptist and an angel, in a rocky setting

Leonardo Da Vinci Vergine delle Rocce Louvre Paris

Leonardo Da Vinci Vergine delle Rocce Louvre Paris

This painting is known as Madonna of the Rocks. The earlier version is in The Louvre in Paris and the latter one is in the National Gallery, in London. Both are nearly 2 meters high and painted in oils on wooden panel.

Age of Enlightenment in Venice and Sandro Botticelli’s Venus

Coming from the same city Venice, just a bit earlier (1445 – 1510) we find Sandro Botticelli’s Venus equally entrancing. Some years back, even though this was not my conscious intention, when I visited the Uffizi Gallery in Florence, I just could not get out of the room of where the Botticelli’s Venus was and even though I consciously wished to pay respect to other Masters within the same Gallery, I had to return to silence and divine expansion experienced watching Venus’s adventures.

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Birth of Venus, Sandro Botticelli 1482, in Uffizi Gallery in Florence

“For primitive man… His country is neither a geographical nor a political entity. It is that territory which contains his mythology, his religion, all his thinking and feeling in so far as he is unconscious of these functions… Primitive man is un-psychological. Psychic happenings take place outside him in an objective way. Even the things he dreams about are real to him…”

Jung, Lecture, Archaic Man, Collected Works, Civilization in Transition

Don’t you find Mythology to be the most fascinating science? Passed through pictures, like the ancient Egyptian spirituality, whether Christians, Muslims or Hindus, Taoist, Jews, Atheists or Buddhists, our scientists, applied psychologists and researchers, always followed their inner-most drive for goodness as their souls’ quest, no matter what their have chosen as their personal growth system. While in Malta I was graced to meet some of the most inspiring Catholic Priests, father George for example, helped my adoption journey introducing me to Sister’s Luganda’s Ethiopian orphanage, both of them around 60, still following the path of Jesus helping poor within their missions!

Back in the day, by around the 2000 BC to 700 BC, Mesopotamia was ruled by Amorites, the Amorites (/ˈæməˌraɪts/; Sumerian MAR.TU; Egyptian Amar; Hebrew אמורי ʼĔmōrī; Ancient Greek: Ἀμορραῖοι) established Babylon as their largest city. The term Amurru in Sumerian texts refers to both them and to their principal deity. It was the largest city in the world (10 square km), the first city to reach a population above 200,000 people.

Back in the day, their ancient wisdom was passed to us, their ancestors, through pictures on the temples’ walls or vases. So, the whole world of mythological creatures was a gift of conscious and unconscious learnings and some exceptionally talented scientists of the last 200 years devoted their lives to translate these works. When I for the first time held the 16th century book of Plato, in an attempt to closer examine the Old Greeks writingssince it is closer to the way we express our thoughts, I was completely intrigued by the book! It was TINY!!!! Since there was no printing press, his books were just a few A6 pages long.

So when we read “1,000s of Greek boats sailed across the sea to battle a monster…” we call it a myth, a mixture of truth and reality, yet ancient Greeks or Egyptians never drew an image of 1,000 boats, but two indicating “many”, and they drew a monster not necessarily because they believed in monsters but perhaps to warn us against a more advanced enemy that uses fire as weapon, or they encountered a disease sent by Gods – a type of madness perhaps for drinking salty waters, etc... How deeply words get lost in translation! If you wish to explore any subject further, I encourage you my dear consciousness researcher to follow the original research of our ancestors trusting their wisdom inspired logic, going back to the ancient Egyptian paintings and Greek paintings for guideline. Trust me, our brains are no better nor worse than our ancestors’, we just live surrounded by different set of circumstances, and we may or may not use the opportunity to learn from their wisdom inspired knowledge.

Apollo was the God of healing, music and poetry, but also of oracles. Is this a message to use poetry, and music while talking to Gods?

Hermes was the God of travelers and thieves and he played lyre, a bit like our Gypsis…

 Mystical Christianity Alpha and Omega

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Babylon Mysticism

Amorites first fighters for Justice Freedom Equality 2,000 BC

Babylon Mysticism and 2,000 BC

Amorites and North Africa's Advanced Civilizations

Following Humanity's fight for

You must have heard of Babylon, the city that was pillaged numerous times and was officially "damned" by God, with its name written within our official copies of the Bible, the most published book of all times!

The lovers of LOVE will rejoice hearing that Babylon founder were indeed called Amorites.

by Nataša Pantović

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Marduk of Babylon Encyclopedia Brittannica

Even though and / Goodness is my research I have missed the fact that Amorite monarchs led a revolution of their times (2,000BC North Africa), they freed citizens from taxes, distributed Church land to citizens, abolished forced labor, spread education building most amazing cities...

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